Seeing Red

In My Eyes

I can see again. Okay, that is a bit of hyperbole, but I can finally see again, and it's been blowing my mind this whole weekend.

Context

To keep this short, I had a pair of glasses from Warby Parker (I know I'm fancy) for about 7 years. These glasses got abused. I wasn't throwing them around or anything like that, but over time they just got beat up a bit, dropping them and getting scratched, my cat knocking them off the night stand, so on. I've also been hit in the face multiple times playing soccer and they got really crooked. I can look down and they would just fall off. The most devastating effect from all of this was they were HORRENDOUSLY scratched.

What are you serious?

Yes I am serious, and yes I am answering my own question. It was so bad that the scraches would even obscure things on my computer screen. At night, it was even worse, the light from cars and street lights would be so obfuscated, I would just have to "trust" that I'm still in my lane. I know it's very dangerous, but I don't drive much at night. I would constantly complain that "I can't see" and people would look at me like I'm a goddamn idiot.

Just get new glasses...

Well that's the thing. OBVIOUSLY I should get new glasses, but it's not that easy.

Okay, it was that easy, but let me explain. Sometimes you are just busy. Sometimes you just keep saying "next week I'll go". Deep down I have an intense fear of the eye doctor. I won't go into it, but the gist of it is that I just don't like things near my eyes. I'm very flinchy and always have been. Getting haircuts even stress me out.

The dreaded eye pressure test. That little puff of air they hit your eye with is my bane. I skipped out on the last time (7 years ago), but I knew I had to try.

Testing

The eye doctor tech? Nurse? got so upset I couldn't do it. They even noticed I was getting anxious and flinchy when they were trying to take the photo of my eye. Berating me, guilt-tripping me cause I couldn't keep my eye open. They told me I had to hold it open, and I couldn't do it. Feeling like an absolute ass for not being able to hold my eye open. Apologizing profusely, and trying to articulate it's kinda tough. Met with scoffs and sent back to the lobby to wait for the eye doctor.

A new lease on life

Well fast forward two weeks and I got new glasses (same frames from Warby Parker cause I don't want to stress about new frames). I can see clearly and it's insane. It legitimately feels surreal to be able to see clearly again. It is so surreal to me I had to type this up. My old glasses were just that bad.